I am a: Quirky sysadmin. Geek. Gamer. Comic fangirl. My little space, my home on the interwebs. I blog about personal stuffs, work, various coding projects, and anything else I feel like.

Thanksgiving and Christmas were painful. To say I haven’t been coping well is an understatement. Work was kicking my ass, plus from end of October to beginning of January are usually the times I struggle the most mentally and emotionally. Work being an already heavy load to bear. So naturally I withdrew into my shell. […]

I actually had planned to post this a few weeks back, but have been fighting a really bad an upper respiratory infection and my asthma is acting up. I’m on my second round of antibiotics, yay. Fun times! (not really) I dreamt about “him” again. The man in my dreams. The one whose name I […]

I keep thinking that maybe work/life/everything will slow down for a few minutes so I can write more, but I should know that’s never going to happen. LOL Actually, it’s probably a good thing that I wasn’t writing anything on here. With the surgery now over, and I’ve stopped all the nasty hormones I was […]

I have been dreaming about someone I’ve never known. It’s been happening for several years, but the dreams have been becoming more frequent in the last few. They’re very powerful and emotional dreams. Colors are vivid, and I can sometimes remember sensations. For example, in one dream we were sitting somewhere together at night. Everything […]

I dreamed about my grandmother last night. In my dream she was exactly as I choose to remember her, fiery and full of life; like she was before my grandfather died, before her breakdown, and before dementia had fully taken her from us. I don’t remember much about the dream now, but it seemed that […]

I think I’ve mentioned before that I have irrational fears. Most people I know are afraid of “normal” things … you know, snakes, spiders, clowns, zombies, etc. Me? I get hung up over the intangible, or improbable. Ever since starting this job, one of those irrational fears has become heightened — being trapped in a […]