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Some days, it appears to move far too slowly; others, much too swiftly. I can’t believe it’s been almost a year already. So much has changed, yet so much has remained the same. I still miss the fuck out of you.

This year has been difficult, especially the last few months. Tonight I watched my family and, while short-lived, it was nice. We talked, we laughed, we ate our fill of delicious foods. Most every one behaved themselves. But after it was over, I came home feeling a little empty. I’m saddened because I am doubting […]

Driving home from Oneonta this year was different from previous years. While I still contemplated all of the many things for which I am thankful, my heart hurts for my family. My brother and his wife are divorcing. Being there tonight, I saw some of myself in my sister-in-law and some of my father in […]

This past week I was forced to say goodbye to someone very dear to me. Reggie Swain passed away just over a week ago. His service was this past Thursday. I told a mutual friend that I didn’t want to be there, because being there made it real … it meant he was really gone. […]

Feeling so lost right now. Disoriented. Disconnected. I keep checking my phone out of habit to see if you’ve texted. Checking Facebook to see if you’ve updated or sent a DM. How am I supposed to move forward now? From this? I have this gaping aperture in my heart … you’re still there, but just […]

Wow, seems like yesterday was New Year’s … and here it is almost Memorial Day. There’s been a ton of changes but I honestly had not felt like writing anything all this time. Work is insanely busy with several projects, one of the biggest is moving some of our business-critical applications from Lotus/Domino to Salesforce. […]