I am a: Quirky sysadmin. Geek. Gamer. Comic fangirl. My little space, my home on the interwebs. I blog about personal stuffs, work, various coding projects, and anything else I feel like.

That sums up my weekend I guess … local Greentop barbecue sandwiches and trying to remember to count my blessings. My therapist is really big on gratitude, so I’ve been making an honest effort of it — constantly reminding myself that it could be worse. I’ve spent the last couple of months now at home […]

Wow, it’s been a month already. I’m … surviving. Mostly. My anxiety bounces up and down, but otherwise I get up every day and login to work. I work a full 9 hours, sometimes a bit more, and log off. I try to eat half-way decently and do something fun every evening. Lately it’s been […]

So I’m on Day 2 of involuntary quarantine. How are y’all faring? I’m as comfortable as I’m gonna be, so take that for whatever it’s worth. I mean, I’m sitting at my desk for 8-9 hours, then move to the couch or the bedroom to chill/unplug. But at least the babies are happy I’m home. […]

Another year down. I’m still struggling, but staying afloat. Thanksgiving hit me hard. Tonight hit me harder. As I drove home through the beautiful fog, I reflected on the events of the day, of the night, and of the last few months in general. Dealing with family has been … difficult, to say the least. […]

Some days, it appears to move far too slowly; others, much too swiftly. I can’t believe it’s been almost a year already. So much has changed, yet so much has remained the same. I still miss the fuck out of you.

This year has been difficult, especially the last few months. Tonight I watched my family and, while short-lived, it was nice. We talked, we laughed, we ate our fill of delicious foods. Most every one behaved themselves. But after it was over, I came home feeling a little empty. I’m saddened because I am doubting […]