I am a: Quirky sysadmin. Geek. Gamer. Comic fangirl. My little space, my home on the interwebs. I blog about personal stuffs, work, various coding projects, and anything else I feel like.

There’s not a ton to tell but I have been meaning to post something just so there’s regular content of some kind on here because that’s been one of my goals. The job situation is only slightly better, but not by much. We have yet another new boss. I like this guy, he’s nice enough. Very smart, has great jokes and is keeping me well supplied with chocolate (much to my doctor’s chagrin I’m sure).

The company is supposed to start awarding raises starting next month, but I am not holding my breath. If I do get one, pretty sure it won’t be a significant amount. I’m very much unhappy that we’ve gone this long without them. Actually, I’m very much unhappy about a LOT of things, but seriously, this company underpays probably most, if not all, of the non-management staff from what I’ve gathered from various sources over the years.

But that’s another rant for another time …

I’m still going through various doctor appointments, but am pretty much fed up with both my insurance company (BCBS/AL) and the pain specialist. To make a very long and convoluted story short: I was prescribed two methods of treatment for my migraines, Aimovig self injections and doctor-administered Botox injections, and I cannot get either. Insurance is pointing the finger at the doctor’s office, the doctor’s office is pointing fingers at insurance. Neither of them can give me a straight answer so I’ve given them both the finger. I still have another neurologist that my GP recommended, but honestly at this point I am so fed up that I really don’t want to see anybody. I may put it off until after the new year. /shrug

Things with the Metformin have not improved as far as symptoms. But on the plus side, my A1C went down by a whole point and I’ve lost nearly 20 pounds at my last follow-up. It’s managing to keep my blood sugar in check, which is the goal, so I had agreed to give it a bit longer to see how things look at my next visit with my GP. The side effects are not enjoyable but are mostly manageable with lots of Pepto Bismol. Yay … blurgh.

My anxiety and depression have both worsened. I started seeing a psychiatrist and I’ve been put on Lexapro. It’s helping with the depression somewhat, but doing absolutely nothing for the anxiety. That said, I do feel somewhat better. Well see how it goes with the holidays coming up because this is the time of year when I’m at my worst/lowest. My therapist is helping me with coping with my anxiety. The depression is still there, but let’s just say that the Lexapro takes the edge off … that’s the best way I know how to describe it.

I still can’t sleep. I’m exhausted all of the time and despite changing my vitamin intake, I have absolutely no energy. I’m making an effort to get up and move around more. I have the intention of working out on the weekends and maybe some during the week but it has not happened yet. Lately life has gotten in the way far too much, or I’ve just been out of fucks to give.

Dating has been a bust so I’m pretty much just not making any effort right now. I have no interest in putting in the effort right now because honestly I would be going through the motions just to say I was out there doing it. But my heart’s not in it, and I’m just kind of sick of everyone’s shit right now.

So yeah … work is stressful. Dealing with family has been equally stressful. So I still spend my time with my distractions as much as I can. I am doing what I can with what I have … which seems to be something I’m good at apparently. I find that thought highly amusing; my mother was far less amused. :)

I hope y’all’s week is going well. Mine is … well, it just is. I have a couple of days off coming soon. I hope I get to actually take them.