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Saturday’s game was a gut wrencher. I was reading in The Tuscaloosa News this morning some quotes from the football players, their reactions to game. One that sticks out in my mind was Crimson Tide guard Antoine Caldwell saying “It felt like a death in the family.”

I know exactly how you feel, Antoine.

When the game was over, I had to leave the room. I had to go find a nice quiet place where I could cry and vent before Jim started his “It’s OK, honey, they’ve had a good season. They’ve had so many injuries, … ” routine. God love him, he tried his best to console me afterwards. *smiles* The only thing I could say was “I don’t want to talk about the game.”

Hell, I had been sitting on my hands for the last quarter plus OT!

I hate investing so much of myself, my soul, my emotions, into these games; because it hurts when it doesn’t turn out the way you want. In all honesty, and for what it is worth, I do think the Tide has had a very good season overall and I am VERY proud of them.

But again, it hurts when we lose. And it’s hard losing when we hadn’t been “winners” (or at least in the eyes of anyone outside of the state) in what seems like a very long time. It’s easy to get caught up in the hoopla and excitement of a winning streak, start the smack talking, and the RammerJammer’ing. Although I have been good about not doing any of the latter two, I was looking ahead at the Championship game rather than taking it week by week.

Next weekend’s Auburn. They are looking pretty hard too. They pulled one out of their pieholes this weekend in a close one over Georgia. But we are not without hope. If we beat Auburn and LSU loses one of their last 2 games, Bama still has a shot at that championship.

That’s a tiny thread of hope there, but I’m hangin’ on for dear life!

Many of my friends who are not from the South don’t understand the obsession with college football. I have to explain to them: Down here, the only thing bigger than college football is God.